Last night I had a conversation with my therapist that made it clear that I was motivated by guilt.
This guilt has helped me be successful in some ways because I feel compelled to continue doing things I don’t feel like doing because I feel guilty about letting people down. As a result, I meet many of my obligations.
This feeling has also been a drag because it’s stopped me from taking actions that I want to. I stay in situations longer than I probably should.
The guilt inside me is insidious because it colors many of the other feelings I have.It’s hard to think of any other emotion that isn’t related to it.
I’d like to change this. Being motivated by guilt makes me less likely to take risks and experience the full spectrum of my humanity.